My journey towards freedom and my true self
Last year was a year of developing as a mother, training for my business and reflecting on my path. My business had been the same for quite a few years and suddenly I found myself in the midst of change, evolving and cocooning like a caterpillar, ready for the transformation into a butterfly in 2017.
I spent most of 2016 developing spiritually, getting to know myself and learning to trust in the universe to guide me. It was a challenging year filled with big bumps my road of life, yet it showed me how strong and resilient I now am and how I can always find the solutions I need.
Through synchronicity and to my complete surprise, I ended up training in Reiki which helped me develop the skills I needed to enhance my intuition and receive guidance on my path. And during this time, I also retrained as an Energist Trainer, taking the new Energy EFT courses through the Guild of Energists (formerly the AMT). This training filled a major gap I had with Traditional EFT and with the former direction of my business. I was now opening up to a more heart-centred, spiritual and positive way of working with myself and others.
One thing I didn’t have the answer for was what I really wanted to do with my business. I was asked in the training to develop a specific vision of what I wanted to do, a vision that excited and inspired me.
It wasn’t until the very end of the year and the beginning of this year that things really started to take shape and form. I realised that my business is my passion and that we were transforming together to make something beautiful and new. I had a sudden flash one day that I desired to focus a significant part of my work on helping others with anxiety as that is something I spent my adult life learning to break free from.
It took the challenges I faced last year to make me realise that I had truly overcome anxiety and that I was resilient and able to deal with life in a positive way. My past experiences seemed to fly through my mind revealing just how much I had dealt with and how difficult I had found everyday life growing up and as a young adult. I was amazed how I had forgotten all the fears and paranoia and helplessness that I felt and wondered how I ever managed before and how no-one really knew what I was going through. Looking at Facebook one day, I suddenly noticed that friends were starting to come forward who had been battling with anxiety their whole lives, most of them managing to look on the surface like confident and successful people. It reminded me how alone I felt, doubting my sanity at times, feeling like there was something very wrong with me when in fact more and more people have to face these kinds of feelings every day that at the time, they have no control over.
The control for me came slowly as I spent time researching in order to understand myself better and where this had all come from. I read book after book trying different techniques to help myself, with small improvements along the way. I got to the point of being so frustrated with myself for knowing what was wrong and how I should feel, yet being unable to control myself enough to actually feel much better or stop certain reactions when triggers arose.
It wasn’t until I started practicing EFT everyday after having my third miscarriage several years ago, that I truly began to transform into a being filled with happiness, love and appreciation for life (which I had always felt was at the heart of me). This journey towards love has flowed now into my work to the point where I feel passionate and able to help others who face similar challenges to the ones I faced. We all have unique gifts we can contribute in life and I have finally found mine.
So, whether you are dealing with chronic stress or anxiety, I would like to invite you to open the door to your palace of possibilities where you dare to dream of a future filled with joy and happiness. Every journey is unique and no-one can say how far you will come but what I do know is that believing you are stuck and there is no hope is not a good space for improving your experience in life. You are not the anxiety, it is not yours and only you have the power to unlock your true self.
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